i need to be a little more understanding….
he needs to be a little more sensitive..
then..it would be more perfect than now
but still..nothing is perfect in this world..so i should ask for less
then i will be more happy=)
perhaps it will be better…but its fine now!!=D
oh its been long since i blogged in….hahaha…was lazy and kind of buzy too
now im in spore….when i should be in kong kong (a kampong chalet place at msia).it is a comm retreat…i said im going de…but yest last min back out…becoz i cant go anymore..mycalls(my current job as a telephone interviewer with MOM) are lousy..got to buck up.
so i bang seh last min..so sorry!
guess they are enjoying themselves now….
tink im slacking too much.
feeling lazy.
slping too much.
like that not healthy.
nothing interesting happen.
sianz.
ohh it was sad….sad that my bdae lies amidst of exams =(((
however, it was lucky that my next paper is quite long after…so i manage to slack and celebrate!my 1st bdae with my bay oh..hhehee
the following dae,went dinner with my jie meis!!!they are oso having exams…but still squeeze out some time for me. Thank you gers!!
last friday..i had a big surprise!!by my beloved 03s02!!!
i was out having dinner with zijing and his collegues at far east square…the one near chinatown..quite inaccessible wn i find.then half way…i was brought out to my friends!they popped out of nowhere!!!hahaa!!they actualli liase with zijing to give me a surprise!quite a no of them there….they actualli went all the way down to that inaccessible place to celebrate for me.so happy!i really appreciate it!!thanks guys!!
was quite sorry that i cant join them after that coz got to go back for the dinner.soorry ohh.
looking forward to my last paper!!then can go out to play lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gd luck to myself!
heys!!the qing gong yan todae is great!!perhaps i juz alwaes like such gathering….its the warmth ard..
cheers to our success!!and we can hav qing gong yan this yr instead of the alternative celebration if we din get our champs again..hehe!!hope nxt yr we can hav QGY again…and all other yrs ahead!!
QGY suppose to start at 630pm…its at grassroot club’s naked fish shoppe.
however it start at 715pm lidat if im not wrong.haha…as usual lah…ppl are alwaes late!but its ok…juz tt got to wait with a hungry stomach=(
after eating we had gift apprecition presentation.then lotsa lotsa photo taking session!!so nice!!capture all the nice moments down.
guess its the last happy event ard at tkd coz exam is ard the corner…SIANZ!!everyone is gg to be bzi preparing for it.there will be ppl gg to trg at most till nxt week…once after grading…exam start lo.so i shall treasure this last few trgs before i go on a journey full of tortures!!!shall look forward to after exam!!
realli love my tkd ppl…there are the ones who pulled me up during my periods of downs…and the ones who giv me back my hopes when they start to vanish.and let me noe that there are still great ppl ard…and that the day is still bright =).
thanks alot!!!!!!!!
and once again….3 cheers to QGY!!
after so much consideration..
after so many advices from my great snrs..
after so many opinions from my peers…
the PROS:
1)i can "fulfil" my dream of discovering myself
2)i can learn many many endless tings
3)its a super good experience
4)i can contribute
5)i can learn how to handle and juggle with multiple tasks
the CONS"
1)less time for myself
2)less time for my beloved ones and friends
3)and i have to take tuition…
4)and i wan to win back the gold nxt yr…haven include IF i go for sparring…got time?
5)im a yellow belt…too many tings i duno..not that i wan to consider it…but its realli stressful
wells seems like pros and cons balance out.
however im realli one who cannot work under too stress a condition….
and to contribute…i tink i can contribute more at my comfort zone…i can put in more effort in helping out…than to be overseeing everyting.
furthermore sometimes dreams are not meant to be realised…i dun wan to pursue my dream and neglect other more impt stuffs in my life..which i may be blinded at the moment becoz i concentrate too much on my dream.
actualli most imptly i dun wish to regret.
there is somehow an answer aredi..but im still floating ard for a definite answer…
sumtimes my somewhat answer changes wan…wahaha
since young…i nvr tink that big names suits or goes with me…for eg engineer, architect etc etc…nor the position of a chairman or president.
im used to being a support…
helping ppl make decision…providing suggestions…
rather than being the one who make the decision.
now im given the chance.hmm..should i take the challenge?
since duno when..i actualli very much wanted to find out how much my capabilities are.how far i can go.but so far…i had nvr take any stride out before…nor do i hav i chance.till now..i still wish to find out.i hav a chance now…but then this is a hard role.
after listening to a few opinions bout others..got many diff thots gg on in my mind.still sorting my own thots.
actualli i wish to try.coz i wish to know myself more.
but then the tings i need to know and learn and handle is not within my confidence level.kind of way above.
not that im not confident of myself.but its juz a very diff situation from wad i had ever experience in my whole life.
wells sometimes color juz matters.if not y are there so many colors…and y sum ppl hav preference over certain colors?
hmm…pros and cons to b weighted.whether to take up the challenge or not…to be considered thoroughly…dun wan to regret my choice.yeap
tired..still got to do gifts.tml got make up lesson!!sianz…
emm…perhaps sometimes i juz tink too much.
but juz so inevitable wan leh.
i alwaes tink of the consequences,wad will happen,wad will this wad will that.isit gd?isit better not to?isit like that…what if that happen…wadever.
emm..actually more aften then not,i would rather i dont tink so much..its sometimes so tiring.
if i can juz do tings the way i like…do exactly according to wad i feel or tink…no need to tink of any consequences..or care of wad others tink.
however.i juz cant do that.
BUT..i’ve areadi learn how to accept the reality.at least more than in the past.so,i can deal better with all those not-so-necessary thoughts that reflects the reality..emm which will make me sad,but perhaps wun affect me much.eh wad am i toking?u muz be wondering.wells..i oso dun reali noe…tink im quite tired now…organisation of words lik very bad leh
gd nitex!
suddenly..ivp over for the 4th dae le…memories still fresh.but the sad feeling fading le i guess so.or perhaps its juz like not realli wish to tok much bout it le.
i shall juz try harder nxt yr!!and to all those who failed in one way or another…try harder nxt yr too k!!dun giv up soo easily..no such ting as retire nxt yr…not allowed yet..there is a minimun age for retirement wan lor..so in ntutkd..cant retire for ivp unless u hav graduated,kekez!understand??
anw…nth is perfect in this world.
hmm…this few daes i was very slack in terms of work.juz feel very tired everydae leh.lik more tired then before ivp.strange enuff…now i got more time for study but i am not studying much.i gav myself a reason: ever since i start to prep for ivp, i seldom study during weekdaes..esp at nite.so now im soo no use to studying after sch at nite.but then this cant carry on!!!so i’ve decided to allow myself to slack maximum till this sun.sun i muz start work le!!!
hopefully the mood for study will be back.exam is coming!
in sch now.waiting for lesson at 430.came library to print notes.after i finish blog shall go take a nap if i can…tonite can try to study abit
tml im gg ktv with my angelssss and AIs!!!sooo look forward to it!!!yah again another slack ting to do..but sun not yet reach ma…i noe i will enjoy de!
smth tt will make me work harder nxt week is that QGY is gg to be on nxt sat.so i muz study hard hard so as to enjoy and reward myself totally nxt weekend!yeah!
i muz jiayou and jiayou everyone!
my pattern compatition finally over.
result not wad i wanted.
close fight.
but great job angels!!
we are the gold medalists in all our hearts.
i love my angels!!
pattern is over…
ivp started todae!!soooooo exciting!!!we got 9 golds le!!
fighters!!jiayou tml k!!
kip the spirit high…and we will soar high tml!!
get the overall champion again this yr!
wells..tired le…more updates after the ivp.
im going to c many gd shows tml!!
and jiayou mr bay!!!(even tho i tink u will c this onli after the ivp..hee)
